daniyellin

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FRUSTRATED. I just need a vent. I wish I could speak this but at the risk of sounding too pathetic I don't have anyone that would listen to me. Oh wait, that is really pathetic. I have found that I now have little to no friends. I have built up so much anger that it has made me a mean person. I never used to be mean. I never used to gossip, I never used things as an escape, I never ignored my body, and now look at me.
Look.
I am dead behind my eyes. I don't feel anything. I've never been so upset by my own reflection. But I am. I don't know how I got to this point but I want out. I'm having anxiety attacks, ym vision is fading, and I have no motivation to do anything. Anything. That shou;dn't be normal! I'm 19. I should be living it up and partying and having a blast doing whatever I want to do. Or maybe i jusdt realize my own mortality and have become too afraid to leave my room. Have I become too comfortable in things and now I'm looking to escape? what's going on here. What's wrong with me.

what have I become?

I remember a time when pot was my sole interest.

awkward how i still sort of long for those days.

Sorry :o)